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Yes I know i'm alive again. haha

Tue, 19 May 2009 14:32:49 GMT

I just re-read my diary concerning a certain part of my life around 2 years ago that i super regret. It's painful to relive those moments but i learned a lot eh. There was one entry after the whole issue wherein i wrote down a conversation between my friend eric and I. I want to copy paste a part of what he said:

"I really think one of the reasons why you don't have a guy (which i think is a good thing) is that with all the guys that has surrounded you or had an 'issue' with you, not one was worthy to have you. Or that if they ever did, no body would have been able to handle the great person that you are. It's like emptying a pitcher with a teacup. You're the pitcher."

I'm not sure if i had already posted this here but, if i'm reposting it, Okay lang. Thanks Eric!! That helped me a lot during that time. And i'll probably be coming back to this conversation again and again whenever i need it. :)

Sunday, March 15, 2009

Sun, 15 Mar 2009 16:53:59 GMT

It's not fair.

Friday, January 23, 2009

Fri, 23 Jan 2009 06:02:05 GMT

For the past few weeks, I think Grey's Anatomy kept me sane. I was watching re-runs (yes re-runs so i currently don't know what's happening) and my love for the show resurfaced. I love the script writers.

Dr. Meredith Grey: Hey.
Dr. Derek Shepherd: Hey. You almost died today.
Dr. Meredith Grey: Yeah, I almost died today.
[Derek is at a loss for words and starts heading to the door]
Dr. Meredith Grey: I can't, I can't remember our last kiss. All I could think about was, "I'm going to die today and I can't remember our last kiss," which is pathetic. But the last time we were together and happy, I... want to be able remember that, and I can't Derek. I can't remember.
Dr. Derek Shepherd: I'm glad you didn't die today.
[Starts to leave but stops]
Dr. Derek Shepherd: It was a Thursday morning, you were wearing that ratty little "Dartmouth" T-shirt you look so good in, the one with the hole in the back of the neck. You'd just washed your hair and you smelled like some kind of... flower. I was running late for surgery. You said you were going to see me later, and you leaned to me, you put your hand on my chest and you kissed me. Soft. It was quick. Kind of like a habit. You know, like we'd do it everyday for the rest of our lives. And you went back to reading the newspaper and I went to work. That was the last time we kissed.
[Derek starts to leave]
Dr. Meredith Grey: Lavender. My hair smelled like lavender... from my conditioner.
Dr. Derek Shepherd: Lavender. Huh.

I know, it's so mababaw but I got kilig during this conversation. And a lot more! :D

Saturday, January 10, 2009

Sat, 10 Jan 2009 07:46:00 GMT

Usually, around this time in January, I'd be posting plug-ins for our dance concert on the 24th. I've always promoted sayaw manila and I've always been active in the "preparation" stage. But this year my sentiments towards indayog has dramatically changed. I became this lazy-i-dont-care-anymore kind of officer from the once "proactive" one. It got me thinking. What makes me think that it's okay to miss meetings? Why dont i find the need to pass by the studio anymore? I realized that i dont have the drive to try to make the best out of this organization anymore. Certain things have happened that made me see that it's not exactly the kind of environment that i would want to involve myself in. Hey but dont get me wrong, there are still a lot of decent people in this org. Sometimes i just dont agree with the principles and morals that they show. I used to be innocent. I used to believe in a world that could be utopian. Indayog changed that i think. Or, at least, it triggered it. It's sad actually. hmmm maybe this time around it will able to redeem itself. In any case, I'm STILL dancing for Sayaw Manila and I STILL hope you guys could come. :)

SAYAW MANILA 5: I AM
January 24, 2009, Saturday
6:00 pm onwards
Contact me for tickets!

WAHHHH!

Mon, 10 Nov 2008 05:15:55 GMT

I don't want to go back to school yet. I enjoyed sem-break a lot even i was just idle most of the time. haha I needed that kind of break to recharge.

I'm crossing my fingers hoping that the Bio teachers are still as tamad to teach as the students are to go to class.

Uh-oh

Tue, 14 Oct 2008 16:20:39 GMT

Friends, help. I'm having an A*vin moment. I don't want to ruin it. :/

Balance

Mon, 13 Oct 2008 15:21:55 GMT

I now really believe in the fact that the universe will not give you the perfect everything. It's impossible to say "My life is perfect right now, I don't want anything to change". If one aspect of your life is perfect, another part may be going downhill. Recently, I could say that my life has been looking better than it used to but then stuff with Indayog happened.

Indayog's been constantly at the back of my head, nagging me, telling me that I have responsibilites with the org. It started out really great, I even thought at one point that wow, next year, i'm going to be president. Then i started to see it. The flaws in the system. I didn't like how the whole org turned out to be, i didnt like how everything was run. I knew that i could have been a better officer, took charge and tried to change things. But i didnt. I didnt find motivation in it. It sucks because dance used to be my medication, my sedative but now it's been nothing but a bother to me. I cant explain how i feel. I myself dont even understand but i'm just so disappointed with my org right now. It's not the same anymore.

Wow. This entry has no cohesion.

Friday, October 10, 2008

Fri, 10 Oct 2008 07:51:58 GMT

You don't have to make your mind up
I just wanna take my time with you
If that's alright, it's alright
Oh forgive me if I get too shy but
maybe you're the reason why, love
I'm feelin' butterflies

Somethin' bout the look in your eyes
Oooh it just makes me feel so right
When my mind's void You're my joy
You're the dream when I sleep
And hey I'm for ya yeah I adore ya
you're everything That I need
And I love how you love me
If I'm made for you
you're made for me
It's too good to be
So tell me what we're gonna do now
Yeah tell me what we're gonna do now

Funny how my world keeps spinnin'
sometimes you can be so silly
You know just how to make me laugh
Ooh, your skin is so lovely
It moves me when you touch me
I know that you got my back
It feels so safe when you hold me
It's already like you know me

See baby I love how you make me smile
Don't leave please stay awhile
Let's make this happen
I don't care how

Sunday, September 28, 2008

Sun, 28 Sep 2008 01:34:12 GMT

This is Noelle's song, but now i'm stealing it

You give me something
That makes me scared alright
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try
Please give me something
Because someday I might know my heart

Things I Need to Buy

Wed, 17 Sep 2008 16:36:15 GMT

1. New Jeans
2. Earphones!!
3. Belts
4. Those scarves (scarfs?) that Serena uses as headbands
5. Casual dresses for everyday
6. Brown flats
*. Formal Heels (preferably gold)
8. Tops for school!!
9. My trio ring. :( somehow, buying a new one will not replace the original
*10. Brown Sandals
11. Bagssss
12. Sunglasses (I broke my Zara ones but i haven't told my dad yet :/ )

*Not an immediate buy